Day 18 ~I'm DOOMED!!!~

So like fat tastes sooooo good! ROFL!~ I just finished up the salad from Go Raw yesterday & then made myself a garden vegetable dip that was OMG yum. My tastebuds are trying to get me to resign myself that i'm doomed to be fat forever. I am arguing with them & trying to convince myself that I can just excercise for 6 hours a day so I can eat avocados & nutbutters!

Last time I was raw for 6 months & kept gaining & gaining to the point where I started hating my body & hating God because it was some kind of cruel joke that everyone else lost so much eating date nut tortes & all sorts of high fat stuff. This time, even though it is upsetting, I am not going to let it drive me back to cooked stuff! I'll be fat either way so at least I know I will feel better eating raw. sigh. Why do I have to like food so much?!!!! If their was a pill I could take to make me not like food I would actually take it. And I am the most anti-drugs & meds person i've ever known.

So enough whining..

My mom told me something funny today. She said fresh juice in her new addiction & that it's totally replaced the Starbucks addiction! She says the whole time she is at work she can't wait to get home & make juice! She says she can almost taste it! hahahaha that's so cool huh?

Today I ate:
Jackfruit
Salad from Go Raw Cafe
Lucuma/almond milk
Garden veggie portabella platter
Cucumber circles with garden veggie dip

Cleanse:
Flor-Essence in am & pm