Interesting Thing Happened

Ok so my plan was to stay high raw and mostly low fat since I finished my 30 day challenge.. so yesterday I ate some split pea soup, only a quarter cup was left so I made a small cup of black bean soup after that. These were favorites of mine a month ago and both simple & low fat & cooked. About 15 minutes or so after I finished eating I sat down to work on my site some more when all the sudden I felt my energy sink. It was indescribable! Like my aura was 6 feet around my body for the past month and then in an instant it sucked back down inside me. I got emotional and felt like I was about to cry. I didn't like how I felt at all. And it was so strong! I felt like I was in a bad dream and I wanted it to go away! In that few hours before I went to bed I realised exactly why I got panic attacks and how important it really is for me to stay raw. I felt so awful energeticly and my stomach was heavy and I lost that light free bliss feeling completely. In that moment I swore I would never touch cooked food again! I just cannot live like that. I was so not myself all night.

So I am back to fasting now because honestly I was not ready to break my fast when I did. My body is not cooperating with food right now. Nothing tastes good and I am craving the things I was drinking while fasting. Nothing else tastes right. I will be doing blended foods like soups & smoothies at first then just liquids tomorow or so. I got a few unplesent symptoms from eating too because I really feel I was not ready to when I did. It was spur of the moment that I ate because I wanted the taste of Go Raw Cafe's salad bar and not because I was hungry at all. Plus I didn't want to waste that sapote! Which felt ripe enough but ended up not being quite ready lol. I ate most of it.